I have a place where I can be relaxed all the time...

I was invited to have drinks again

This time with one of my best friends


I was quite happy to drink with her as well as usual members

They seemed really happy to have her
I guess that's because I'm always not talkative especially when drinking

This time we had a small incident...
I smacked him, blaming on not having stopped
but that was OUR fault actually, lol
Last time was okay...
I always like it anyway, so I can't, or I shouldn't say anything bad bout that.

I do enjoy drinking with them all the time

I like them so much, and I will be so sad when they leave here


The only thing I can do now is just enjoy time with them
I shouldn't regret anyting in the future
and I don't want it either, so...

I've decided just to enjoy me myself being with them, especially with the one for who I noticed I feel warmth

The place where I feel comfortable and at ease..is...you.
Being next to you in your arms in a warm bed is my favorite thing

But I know it won't last that long....
I need to let you go and he needs to let me go.
We just don't want to do that currently.

Sadness shouldn't come up but it does....
Jealous shouldn't fill my mind but it does....
Affection didn't come up I thought, but it seems to be coming up...


I don't know what the fuck I should do.
I don't know who the fuck I should love.
I don't know when the fuck I can be settled.

maybe I won't know, foeva.
and yet I probably won't do anything, cuz this is the way my life goes..