I wanna go back to the States...

spent a sleepless night

it's all because of that stupid thing I did the other day



when I can be mature is likely to be unknown forever

the only thing I know is I don't fit in this society



I shouldn't be here
otherwise
I will be broken
I will destroy myself



I am mentally weak here
I don't know why
but I can be very strong in the States

I guess the environment makes me be like that



Nationality
I have to live with that

I am pure Japanese
I speak Japanese
I have grown up with Japanese culture
I have grown up in Japanese society
I can't change my nationality


but I just don't like the society here



ha, こんなの全部言い訳だって知ってるさ。
悪いのは全部自分だよ。

心とおつむの弱い自分の所為だよ。

身体と心が痺れる。