It's not about depression, but it's all about my selfishness.

Now, what to say?

I've hurt so many people because I am just too selfish.

I hate myself.


And it hurts to know the fact that someone still loves me.
How can I save him from my harmful personality?

I have no idea..... it's just hard to accept that I am lovable.


My bitter experiences have kept me both sane and insane.

Now I am so scared of hurting someone again
I won't be able to communicate for a while.


It is this time when I always feel I shouldn't have been born.
I am too selfish and too troublesome for people around me.
I shouldn't be loved by people because it only makes me more selfish.


What should I do.....
My head is complicated.

I know the best way to protect someone I love is to leave him,
but somehow I am sure that it will hurt him too.