Sad....

The doc told me I have delayed ovulation

and it's irregular too

and he implied that it'll be difficult for me to get pregnant

saying "you don't want an immidiate pregnancy do you?"

Of course not but what if I wanted to be a mother in the future...?

Can't I be a mother of my own kids?

The doc doesn't know what the problem I have is.

Will it be solved by the time I find a partner to live together for the rest of my life?

Right now I don't want to get married

and nobody knows what will happen in the future

I might end up being single for the entire of my life

but what if I got married and wanted "our" child in the future...


This is serious to me

because I've never thought I would have this kind of problem

I mean, you know, I am the eldest daughter of seven children in my family

Mom did quite a good job giving a birth with each kid

I knew I wouldn't be like mom

It's impossible for me to have seven children no it's not

And I knew I will have trouble giving birth due to my unflexible body

But now...I will have even worse trouble because of the problem inside my tummy!

I want to cry....

If the blood test I took today didn't show anything related to the problem I have

what should I do....

I don't even have a boyfriend now

but I do want to be a mother at some point in the future...

as a woman... I always dreamt of being a mother like Mom

It'd be nice to have little kids looking like me and my future partner

Hope the doc will show me the way to cure

I really hope so